Month: October 2010

Emo-babble.

Everyone is self-serving to a degree, but to blatantly rip off your friends or hurt their feelings? I’m sorry, I can’t accept that. I’ve been told numerous times that I can be rather intense when it comes to my relationships with people. I can be brutally vocal and unforgiving towards certain individuals I’ve deemed unworthy. But, I’m not a maniac. I’m not the paragon of morality. All I’m asking for is just people to be considerate and have some semblance of genuineness. You don’t have to be Mother Theresa.

If it’s business, then keep it strictly business. Don’t act like I’m your lifelong’s answer to a great friendship than bite me in the fucking ass or guilt trip me into submission to achieve your stupid goals. Don’t make snide or insensitive remarks about me then laugh it off like it’s just a funny joke when it’s just you trying to pacify your own insecurities. Yeah, I have self deprecating humour, but NOT THAT MUCH. Don’t try to comfort me as if you really know me when it’s just you getting off in pretending to be my good friend.

Is it so hard? Life is too short. Fuck courtesy, just get rid of the company of people who get you down. There’s too little time to entertain these self-serving egomaniacs.

Poser.

Yeap, that’s what I am. Can’t be wasting such nice makeup and hair (had a magazine shoot, wahhhhhhhh I sound so glam right?).

I really admire girls who take time to apply makeup and style their hair everyday, it’s so much work!!! I wish I were half as disciplined so that I don’t need to look like I just ran into a dirty wall everyday.

Set camera on timer. Kept praying the lift doors won’t open cause I would actually die of embarrassment :P

Wearing my RM18 top I got last weekend from Sunway Pyramid and my 3 year old high waisted trousers from Nichii. Caged heels are from a shop called Elements in 1U. I’ve got another pair in grey too.

Yeah, I might as well call this post, “Kimberly’s discounted clothes”.

Hungry max now (of course I had to starve myself for the shoot la!). Where’s the man aka “bearer of dinner” when you need him?

Sasa.

Sasa has been diagnosed with distemper and parvo virus a few weeks ago. She seemed to be making good progress till this afternoon, where she suffered her 1st seizure. This means her distemper has progressed to a neurological stage, which really means it’s affecting her brains and chances of her pulling through is now next to none. My mom is truly upset. She rescued Sasa from the streets thinking she could give her a good & loving home but now this? My dad and brothers are afraid Sasa might infect the other dogs. Then having the vet recommending euthanasia? It is the hardest, most difficult thing a pet owner can face. I’m feeling incredibly distressed and I can only imagine what’s going through my mom’s mind.

Is it really a noble thing to put your pet down in the name of ending his or her suffering? Would they prefer to die or receive more affection? Is the vet doing enough? How do we know? I don’t know what to say to my Mom. I told her to do what she thinks is best, but it seems like I’m just shirking responsibilities in sharing her pain.

Mom said she will never rescue another dog off the streets again. But can you blame her? I can’t fathom how traumatic this is for her. What would you do?

++ Update ++

Sasa passed away at 4.51pm, 1st of October 2010. Sleep well, little girl. We love you always!