Tall men are so hot.

A friend forwarded me pictures of Jeff Goldblum. He was naked on the beach with his equally bare chum, Lisa Marie (not Presley). I never had the hots for him but boy oh boy was I wrong. Not many men can look so good in the buff, but Goldblum can. He had me gobsmacked. He has that whole wide shoulders, wide chest, long body, long legs, long arms, some muscles but not too much, all going on. Just what I like. Still quivering from mere thought of the pictures.

More Goldblum in the nude.

No more classes for the week. What a relief! Went to a salon and enquired the price for hair rebonding. RM280 including cut. Pretty reasonable I suppose but am dead broke. Going to pester mommy dearest. Dad’s birthday is coming soon so it would be inappropriate to ask him for the dough. Guess I’m just going to bake him a cake. I’d love to get him a new mobile phone as his current one is that old junk Nokia. But yeah, am broke. Unless mom chips in *clears throat*.

My room is a bloody mess. My air-con leaks everynight and the curtain stinks with that shit water. Parquet floor is sort of soggy, maybe my imagination. My house is breaking down but nobody’s fixing anything because we’re moving out soon. My parents figure there’s no way they’d be spending money on a house we’re leaving. Damn lawyers taking forever to do the paperwork. We thought of making it before Chinese New Year but at this rate, we won’t get to move in until mid next year. Will I survive? Arghhhhh.

De-volution.

Wandering aimlessly without knowing what’s next. Ticked off everything on to-do-list yet hasn’t completed anything. Slept for 9 hours but still plagued by fatigue. Weird bouts of sadness in spite of a good day. Emotions bursting at its seams but held back by idunnowhat.

Questions floating in and out of my mind. Where is my moral standing? Where is my loyalty? Where is my respect? Where is my righteousness? Where are my principles? Where is my honesty?

When did I become a hypocrite?

I will not. I will not, for this transition. I will fight the odds.

All I need is the moolah now.

I will choose my dress based on several factors, namely :

1. ability to enlarge my boobs

2. ability to trim my body

Hence, I have decided to shop for a plunging neckline with mini skirt or long slit skirt. Colours do not matter. Googled and found a few designs that I like.

Would love to find something similar but with shorter skirt.

Almost my ideal but difficult to lift my boobs up. Masking tape? Hrm.

I like this but would prefer the skirt in dramatic geometrical print instead of white.

So what do you think?