Category: Emo & Personal

Weekend in Cheras.

Am at my parents’s house now, using my mom’s laptop. Been in Cheras since Friday and have tragically acquired a taste for fresh laundry at my beck & call. How the hell am I to going to revert back to shitty dobby?

Really happy to see my family. Enjoyed catching up on gossips with mom and the shopping. Speaking of which, all my CNY clothes are either black or grey. It’s almost next to impossible to buy something cheerful…they look cheap -_- Don’t know how to describe, bright colours seem to accentuate the cheapness of a fabric and make unruly seams more noticeable. But the same designs and fabrics in dark colours look much more palatable.

Got my mom on Twitter too, her nick is @mercedesng. That’s her glamour name back in high school but she later changed it to Carol due to peer pressure. They kept refering to her as a car.

Been chatting with my youngest brother too. He’s just finished his SPM so he was asking me a lot of questions about working life and college. I have to say that I’m both surprised and proud that my rascal of a brother actually has a coherent train of thoughts. Eversince he made me burst out in tears at the age of 2 (by pulling my hair really hard while I was sitting upside down on the sofa, don’t ask), I never expected him to be anything more than a perpetually annoying presence in my life. Guess what, he is considerate, analytical and smart. My brother is becoming a fine young man and I am…relieved.

:)

The #porkgang also came all the way down to Cheras to visit me and Mercedes. I shall not launch into some emo how-much-I-love-you-guys prattle but yeah, I love you guys. Ruby also brought a cake which my mom absolutely loved!!

Check out how amused she is with the cake..

Picture of mom holding a penis.

Never thought I’d get to write such a caption. Ever.

Person 1

Been extremely emo the past few days. So the story is this, I bought a gift for someone dear to me. I had decided for it to be a semi-surprise because I’ve never bought anything like that for anyone. Long story short, I had it specially couriered to Person 1 at the office but lo and behold Person 1 was on leave hence was unable to receive it. It was those special delivery thing with helium balloons and stuff. Sure, you may think that things like this happen all the time but what really upset me was because I had preempted Person 1 at dinner the day before, hence the “semi-surprise”.

Person 1 had acknowledged the fact that I was sending something but yet did not warn me about not being at the office. Basically, Person 1 lied to me. I told another person who was dear to me (Person 2) about it and Person 2 whom btw loves me immensely took the liberty to send an sms expressing how hurt I was to Person 1. Instead of apologising, Person 1 sent me a nasty sms saying how the gift and everything I did was just a trap and how I ruined the day. Well, it really hurt.

And then I started to realise that Person 1 never kept or ever seen using any gift that I had given in the past. I guess it says a lot. Maybe our relationship is just an obligation or worse, a curse to Person 1.

Took me a few days to get over this. I did not think I would blog this, but I need to let it all out. I know Person 2 is also extremely hurt by this and all these while Person 2 has been taking the brunt of most things while Person 1 behaves like a child – inconsiderate and selfish. Granted, Person 2 has character flaws (brash, caustic and hot-tempered) but it was truly Person 1’s doing.

You probably don’t even understand what I’m jabbering about. But I feel lighter already. Thanks.

Good luck.

Today is supposed to be a happy day. But it turned out to be the absolute opposite. Something happened and it triggered off a lot of bad memories. It’s amazing how a single act or lack of it could lift up the floodgates. All I asked for was honesty. I gave you opportunities to be open with me. All I needed was the truth and we could have avoided all these unnecessary frictions.

Instead, all I got was emotional blackmail. Well, what do you know? It’s a futile effort because you don’t deserve anything from me or us. And to her, I wish her a long healthy life in misery.