Category: Emo & Personal

tired.

i’m really tired. tired of the bullshit and games and ridiculousness. tired of the constant fickleness. tired of guessing, the bitchiness, tired of carving a fake smile on my face. tired of the constant display of stupidity. tired of being blackmailed. tired of the never ending dramas. tired of being unhappy. i’m tired of myself.

a counterpart of mine called to announce his good news. i listened with utter envy, wondering when i could do exactly the same. let go and let live. we shared each other’s story, but mine harsher in so many ways. and yet he has decided enough is enough, he will seek what he deserves.

i’m still just wondering when it’s my turn.

almost a quarter century year old

i should be blogging, but am really not feeling so verbose these days. oh well i’m going to try.

i got roses this morning at the office. the babber secretly sent em to me for my impending birthday. he had just given me a brand new white nokia n97 just about a week ago. my bf is the best one in the world :)

roses

i ought to blog about my recent trip to thailand but i just haven’t got the bleeding time to process any picture. i endeavour to at least write a proper post by the end of the week.

here’s a picture of my room at le meredien chiang mai as a teaser.

le meredien chiang mai

btw, i’m on leave till monday. am determined to pamper myself properly before going back to work…manicure, pedicure, massage the works. i can’t be hitting 25 looking like a banshee :P

wow, i’m going to be 25 very soon.

here are my posts of when i was:

21
22 – errr, i was depressed in Singapore so no birthday post :P
23
24 – Post 1, Post 2

cannot take it

Michael Jackson is dead. just the other day i was chatting with my boyfriend about entertainers that we must definitely see in concerts and MJ was on the top of the list. it’s hard to believe that he’s gone for good. i wish i wasn’t that young when he performed in malaysia. now i really will never be able to see him in the flesh.

rest in peace michael.