Horrible day

It’s a fucking horrible day. First, my period’s being stubborn. Just fucking bleed, ok? I have a party to attend this weekend and the last thing I want is to feel bloated, bleak and bloody.

Then in some dumb twist of circumstances I got into an identity crisis that’s totally uncalled for. Long story, not in the mood to explain and I’m not her. Stop speculating, fuckers.

I drove to college with an almost empty petrol tank. Thought I could make my way home. Yeah I did. But it was minus aircon, radio and under a sweltering afternoon sun. I must have lost 2 buckets of sweat.

I came home to find my mail opened by some fucker. Probably the postman. It’s some marketing gimmick package from Nike, he probably thought it’s something valuable since it’s shaped and weighs like a cd. Still, I feel violated.

I just hate my life right now. My acnes are starting to bother me. I’m tired and sleepy all the time and I can’t stop eating. I need to go shopping.

Pissed with myself.

My keys and camera are still with James. So I ripped a couple of pictures from Jayn‘s phone. These were taken on Friday night.

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Me and Jayn.

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James, me and Jayn.

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Alcohol.

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Best friends are forever.

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Highschool crush. Then I got fatter.

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Ah Sang.

I feel fat and I hate it. Jayna and I made a pact; we’re going to achieve our target weight by our birtdays in July.

I’m having a sudden outburst of acnes on my face thanks to too many late nights. One on my chin, one right on the edge of my upper lip, one above my upper lip, one right smacked on my nose and one on my eyebrow. Been gulping down litres of barley herbal tea but to no avail. I’m officially a pizza face.

Went to La Caso last night. Played a game of pool. It was weird I usually suck at it but yesterday I was pretty good although I pocketed the black ball thinking it was purple. Stupid lights.

I feel like picking up snooker again cause everyone seems to be good at something. Yeah, except me. I could never stick to an activity till at least being good at it. Sometimes it’s lack of interest, sometimes it’s money, sometimes it’s time and most times it’s laziness. No wonder I’ve been trying to lose weight for 6 freaking years.

Oh gawd I want to sleep this off.

i just got back from thai club…..dontrealise how much i missed it till i step into the place.
.james rocccccccccccccccccccccck
so is ah sangggggggggggggg ah sangggggg i luv uuu
i love jaynnnnnnnnnnnnnn i love u babe you’re my best friend forver n ever and ever and ever
i puked onto plants at duestche berggdwhatzever but im stil hotttest
gonna do lucnh with jayn omg i miss you so much babe sorry i gotta made u take me home early
but sam’s evo rocks omg my first time in evo, cun car i want evo evo evo evo evo evo evo evo evo sam’s cooooooooooooooooooooooooool u lucky girl im so happy for u if he bully u i gonna pummel him into a pulp and crash his evo with me kelisa!!!!
i love you alllllllllllllll i love my mom